Ok, so one of the first things that we decided to do when we
officially began the adoption process was to start a blog. There were two main
reasons that we wanted to do this. One, we wanted to document the journey as
much as possible so that we could share it with our future children, and two we
wanted to give people like you the chance to follow our story and feel like they are invested
in it. Knowing that the blog would be a
very important part of our journey, I knew that I would have to eventually
contribute to it in some way. (By the way this is Brian)
For those of you who know me, you are probably chuckling to
yourself right about now because you know how much this puts me out of my
comfort zone. I’m not really a talker. I don’t like to chit-chat, and I’m not
really good at sharing my feelings and all of that kind of stuff. It is something
that I have really been trying to get over, but the thought of having to sit
down and type out my feelings is a very uncomfortable place for me. I think I just threw up in my mouth a little bit.
With all of that being said, I wanted to share my side of our story. For as long as I
can remember, the shower has always been my spot where I do my clearest
thinking. For most people I think it is another area of the bathroom, but for
me it has always been the shower. I don’t know why that is. Maybe the hot
water, the chemicals in the shower gel, I don’t know. A few weeks ago, I was in
my think tank getting ready for work, and I just kept thinking about all of the
things that we are waiting on. We are waiting till we pay this bill off to buy a
new car, we are waiting on my promotion at work to move into a newer home, we
are waiting for this, and waiting for that, and waiting, and waiting and waiting. Then it hit me. We have
always talked about adoption and wanted to adopt. If I remember correctly we
even talked about it on our first date, but we were waiting till we had enough
money. I could feel myself getting angry, why are we waiting? Our children
could be out there WAITING FOR US! Why are we wasting time!
I want you to try to picture what happened next. Wait,
scratch that, maybe you shouldn't try too hard to picture it because I’m sure
it wasn't pretty. I literally ran out of the shower, threw a towel around me
and ran over to Lauren’s desk (she works from home) and said “I’m tired of
waiting”. She just kind of looked at me
with this puzzled look on her face. I’m sure I probably still had soap dripping
off of me, and I was leaving a puddle on the carpet, but I was tired of waiting
and taking the time to dry off first never really crossed my mind. So after I explained
myself a little more, Lauren and I agreed that we were both tired of waiting,
and we were tired of being so dependent on money to do the things that we believe
God has called us to do.
Part of the Lord’s Prayer is “give us THIS day our DAILY
bread”. It doesn’t say give us our daily bread for the next 40 years so that we
can have some savings to lean against, because then are we trusting in God or
our savings? It says give us todays
supply because that’s all we need for today, and tomorrow we will trust You to
do it again. So, that’s what we decided to do. We decided that we are going to
take the steps towards international adoption and we are going to trust that
God will give what we need when we need it. We believe with everything in us
that God has called us to do this, and we will not let anything, especially
money, stop us from doing what God has called us to do. The best part is, God
has people like you lined up ready to support us, whether financially or through
prayer and encouragement. Either way, you
can be a part of our family’s story, and you can help to forever change the lives
of our future children by helping us bring them home.
PS I came up with this post in the shower J
